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Ok, buddies, here I am to spill it all out!! I feel like I’ve lost everything I started with (except the weight of course): my motivation, my goals, my focus.  Can you help me get it back?  I don’t know what is wrong with me.  I still want to lose weight, and after my dr’s appt this week I really NEED to lose weight, but I just seem to keep slipping up.  I know we can all have those days once in a while, but for me it’s been a 3 week long downward spiral.  I didn’t exercise for 2 weeks because of the chest congestion being so bad, but this week I’ve been fine and still haven’t exercised until today, and then it was 2 miles which is ok for starters, but I’m not just starting: I’ve been at this for a long time!!  My hubby could tell I have gained some stuff back even it it’s not a lot of pounds some of the “junk” that I had gotten rid of or firmed up a bit is all back now.  (just so you know, he was not being mean or insensitive at all, we were just having a conversation about it.  He loves me just the way I am!) 

 I feel like I have no control anymore- I just eat whatever is offered to me or I go get what I want.  I’ve been eating out more, even though our finances are so tight.  I take 2nd and sometimes 3rd helpings because the food tastes good or I just want it to comfort me.  I am an emotional eater, and though I had overcome that for the most part, but I see it happening again.  If I keep this up, I’m going to be the same weight (or more) than I was on our vacation last summer, when I saw that picture of myself and flipped out!  Even now, I’m only 6 pounds down from then.  I mean, I know weight loss is supposed to be slow, but 6 pounds in 9 months?  I think I can do a better job than that. 

I almost feel like I’m having a small bout with depression, but it’s only over the food thing.  In all other aspects of my life, I’m completely happy and content.  We have no money, but I’ve decided to stop stressing over that.  I just have to pay what I can when I can and be ok with doing that, because there is nothing else I can do.  So, anyway, I’m searching for answers and hoping my buddies can give me the swift kick in the butt that I need and remind me why I started this journey in the first place! 

It seems like the advertisers are becoming more and more rampant on this site!!  If you are only here to try and get us to use some new “miracle” product, don’t waste your time or ours!  Do NOT send me messages or posts regarding Hydroxycut, Alli, Acai Berry, or whatever else you want to me to waste my money on.  I’m never going to buy it, and really it just irritates me to find those messages in my inbox.  If you are not here to give and get support for weight loss, then please go somewhere else!  This is not the site for you!  If you want to be my buddy, by all means send me a request.  If you just want me to visit your website, buzz off!  Thanks and have a nice day!